Post by Someday on Jan 14, 2007 13:47:19 GMT -5
Journal:
Dim red, oranges, blues, purples. They streak across the sky, coloring the time dawn color. Nature's silence weaves its way across the damp land. the winds. They come and rumple the blanket of quiet. They toy with the leaves. They jump from branch to branch, leaving the shaking as a sign they were there. A streak of sunlight from somewhere in the horizon escapes the gruff hands of the sun. It announces the sun's soonest arrival. The clouds are parting. And from somewhere in the distance, faint hooftaps signify the arrival of a small gix. Barely more than a filly, small feet carry her painted poison and light frame to the lands.
I can feel it. I can feel the emotions of all those around me. They twist themselves around her harks, urging her to listen to them sing their worries. Perceptive glances she sends over to the others all around. I find that they are all older, more mature. Yet they flirt and toy with the poor stags that surround them. Would that be considered childish? Because I can recall, from when I was young. Dispatch. He was always bored, he claimed. He talked to me in a mellow voice, like he expected me to melt. He wanted me to play a little with him. I would always find a bit of an interesting thing to wonder at. I would ignore him. Then he would leave. That would be childish, would it not? To play with a while, claim that you love them, then ignore them in next? Passing time. That's the only thing it does.
I know the risks of coming to this land. Falling in love is one of them. I don't need love. Love makes you vulnerable. I know what love can do to a horse. Everyone says love is wonderful; mother only said it was okay. Then I look into her eyes, and I see things that weren't meant for anyone to know. Feelings of hurt, hate, betrayal; I could see them all. I feel overpowered by her feelings of bad, so I have to stop looking. I vow, now, to never love. Ever. Because that is when you give away part of yourself, to someone you admire too much. You don't ever get anything back. Plus, I'm too young. Who'd want to take a tiny mare who's in over her head, who's stubborn, mule-headed, and idiotic? Because if I hadn't ever been so weird, I would never have been sent away. Instead I would've found my own soulmate there, and never have to be here. In this hell of mush feelings.
The little mare, I, slink into the shrinking shadows, intent on staring at the glistening strands of spiderweb that hangs strongly to a branch. I see it because of the light that bounces off of the thin, strong strands. Little drops from last night's short drizzle make it seem heaven-sent. The poor little creature that painted this beauty is hiding in a corner of the web, in wait. He is tiny, tinier than me, and a dull shade of white. Before long, a small fly, while rushing from a predator, gets entangled within the snarls of the web. The spider excitedly crawls over to his food and wraps it in more of the sticky web paste. He is eyeing me, careful to not let me touch the long-awaited food. Take it, I tell him, knowing he deserves it. He doesn't respond. I don't expect him to. He eats. Then I worry. What if someone heard me speak?
[/sub][/i][/right]Dim red, oranges, blues, purples. They streak across the sky, coloring the time dawn color. Nature's silence weaves its way across the damp land. the winds. They come and rumple the blanket of quiet. They toy with the leaves. They jump from branch to branch, leaving the shaking as a sign they were there. A streak of sunlight from somewhere in the horizon escapes the gruff hands of the sun. It announces the sun's soonest arrival. The clouds are parting. And from somewhere in the distance, faint hooftaps signify the arrival of a small gix. Barely more than a filly, small feet carry her painted poison and light frame to the lands.
I can feel it. I can feel the emotions of all those around me. They twist themselves around her harks, urging her to listen to them sing their worries. Perceptive glances she sends over to the others all around. I find that they are all older, more mature. Yet they flirt and toy with the poor stags that surround them. Would that be considered childish? Because I can recall, from when I was young. Dispatch. He was always bored, he claimed. He talked to me in a mellow voice, like he expected me to melt. He wanted me to play a little with him. I would always find a bit of an interesting thing to wonder at. I would ignore him. Then he would leave. That would be childish, would it not? To play with a while, claim that you love them, then ignore them in next? Passing time. That's the only thing it does.
I know the risks of coming to this land. Falling in love is one of them. I don't need love. Love makes you vulnerable. I know what love can do to a horse. Everyone says love is wonderful; mother only said it was okay. Then I look into her eyes, and I see things that weren't meant for anyone to know. Feelings of hurt, hate, betrayal; I could see them all. I feel overpowered by her feelings of bad, so I have to stop looking. I vow, now, to never love. Ever. Because that is when you give away part of yourself, to someone you admire too much. You don't ever get anything back. Plus, I'm too young. Who'd want to take a tiny mare who's in over her head, who's stubborn, mule-headed, and idiotic? Because if I hadn't ever been so weird, I would never have been sent away. Instead I would've found my own soulmate there, and never have to be here. In this hell of mush feelings.
The little mare, I, slink into the shrinking shadows, intent on staring at the glistening strands of spiderweb that hangs strongly to a branch. I see it because of the light that bounces off of the thin, strong strands. Little drops from last night's short drizzle make it seem heaven-sent. The poor little creature that painted this beauty is hiding in a corner of the web, in wait. He is tiny, tinier than me, and a dull shade of white. Before long, a small fly, while rushing from a predator, gets entangled within the snarls of the web. The spider excitedly crawls over to his food and wraps it in more of the sticky web paste. He is eyeing me, careful to not let me touch the long-awaited food. Take it, I tell him, knowing he deserves it. He doesn't respond. I don't expect him to. He eats. Then I worry. What if someone heard me speak?